Seventeen summer holidays and umpteen other shorter ones… It was always the same feeling as the countdown to them dwindled down… The unexplainable adrenaline rush while waiting for exams to crawl by, the bottomless-pit feel in the stomach. Where has that feeling gone away to now?
Every year in my life that I spent at school and later in college, I have always cherished the count down toward the last day before the summer holidays. It was not that I hated studying/school, and neither was it that I loved to laze around at home. It was just that. A feeling that I would be on holidays for the next number of days of which I never kept count of for fear of finishing it up too quickly. Come to think of it, my daily wake up and sleep schedule did not change either, me being the early to bed, early to rise type. Yet, there was always this mystery quotient attached to holidays. There were also the shorter “winter” holidays, and during the 4 years at spent at boarding school (Sainik School – my high school), I also had the bonus week-long diwali holidays! Long or short, each holiday was as eagerly expected as the previous.
Maybe it was the running up to grandma for a big hug, maybe it was that I could wake up and settle right away to play computer games, maybe it was that I could take long bicycle rides and venture to the beach early in the day before all the traffic, maybe it was because I could splash around in the little man-made pond in our ancestral home, maybe it was the cricket we played in the backyard, maybe it was the cousins, maybe it was … But, I digress.
Each of these holidays were prefaced with a slow build up of adrenaline right through the exam days until the morning of the last exam. (Isn’t it odd that every single vacation was preceded by exams!) And the moment I rush out of that exam hall, the adrenaline was just a little too much to handle anymore! And it was the same routine EVERY SINGLE TIME/VACATION!
Now, I’ve been missing this feeling since the last day of college. It’s not that I’ve not had vacations since. But it has never been the same. No adrenaline build up, no count downs. It just is not the same anymore. I wonder where that feeling went…